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After 3 days 2 nights of staying in the hospital to watch my patient (daddy), here I am checking mails that I've missed for almost 3 days. My 3-day journey was hard for me because it was the time when I weighed things over. DADDY VS THESIS. Well, of course any person would choose his/her family first before anything else and much more if it's a matter of life and death. But, you know, thesis, very demanding of your time and attention. So now, I am catching up w the things I missed: our concept paper. I don't really know why I am trying this because I am so drained of energy and my head hurts. But here I am, TRYING SO HARD. I missed my January 3-5, really :( It felt like I've been in the hospital for a week. No TV, internet and comfy bed. And worst, I wasn't able to have a normal bath. BUT, it was all wort it because I did this everything for Daddy. All for his recovery. No regrets. (just love char) :)

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I had a call from my sister and she told me that she has a bad news for me. She received a message from our cousins telling that Daddy just had a heart attack and that he's in hospital as of the moment. I could not recall anymore with how I reacted to that news. All I know right now is that I need to see him as soon as possible. I can't go there alone, first of all I don't know how to and second of all, mommy won't let me go there all by myself. I am really not in myself right now :( I was able to find what my sister's been asking me to find. I hate how life personally wants to make me go through the eye of the needle. And guess what, I found it along with my things. Fate really is playful. It lets you find things when you don't try to. *SIGH* It's 4:40 in the afternoon and time flies so fast. What a day. I feel like I've already had so much. I hope that everything will be fine as the sun bids goodbye.

PS. I am really not sure if anyone will read this post, but if there is any, please please please include my father's fast recovery in your prayers :( Thank you!

Firsts of 2013

Happy new year! :)

Woke up to the noise downstairs. As I look what was the commotion all about, I found my long lost cousin with her kids. Hahaha! My mood was so-so since I woke up to a salon gorgeous hair :)) Until.... Avey just told me that he might not be able to go here because his going to Tagaytay w his family. I am okay w it since it is a family matter and as long as he's sorry for not showing up here after what my mom just prepared. But he's not... So I became cold to his texts. Apparently, rain poured and he told me that they wouldn't push through to their trip which made him decided to go here instead. It was already 3pm when he arrived here and we went straight to grocery to buy ingredients for our Mango Float :) We went to Savemore near us but unfortunately it's closed. We moved next to Robinson's, SM Marikina and Riverbanks to find the ingredients. At last, we're home and we decided to make the graham cake. He's too proud of what we've done and he tweeted it :))

We had dinner right away and he told me that my Sun dried tuna spaghetti was delicious. Made me smile :D After eating, we had movie marathon and he left by 9PM since he has work tomorrow. I can't let him go home yet (overly attached girlfriend here hahaha) So there, my 1st of January in words :)

Thank you Lord for all the blessings today >:D<

Trust issues

D e c e m b e r  31
Last day of 2012

Hi! Uhm, how do I start this?..

First of all, this is literally a new blog since I wasn't able to find my other blogspot account so I am def sad because I can't read anymore my previous ones. :( Sooooo, why am I here? I thought of writing in my journal but then the lazy hands didn't permit me to. (please credit that it's Christmas break and so my penmanship could be horrible) And poof! Blogspot is the remedy! Yey. Anyway, I woke up 10 to 10 (actually, mom woke me up) and I was pretty deprived of sleep since I slept by 3 in the morning.  What you have just read is just rare. Knowing myself, I don't really stay up late, may it be school stuff or what.. but last night was different. Sooo, here's the catch. I usually go to bed at 11 but last night I decided to spend a little more time texting A so it took me to extend 2 hours. (1am is my latest time of sleep) because he's out w his HS friends, a BNO! (boys night out). I normally permit him if he wants to go out or what. (am such a good girlfriend huhu) And then my usual extension was extended and my drowsiness was almost gone.. 2am and he admitted that he's already drunk and he's been like high because his messages are like.. "Baaaaabe!! asdfghjkl!!!" He was proud that there was a girl checking them out and asked for his and his friend's name and he just said hi or whatever but his friend joined the girl's table and he DIDN'T. Yes, I was proud of him that he can say no to temptations. And he kept on telling me he can't cheat on me because he loves me so much and he doesn't want to lose me ever again. (tissue please hahaha) Then later on, the topic was about TRUST without my notice -__- He rants about how I don't give him my complete trust, that in our 2 years of relationship, he never felt that I trusted him ever. I didn't know how to take that during that time.. Yes, I admit, it was hard for me to fully entrust it to him because maybe it's about my personal issue and and it's his friends that I don't trust :-( We ended up the talk w him being cold to me and now, I am scared of what his mood will be when he wakes up.

Anyway, now that I was able to spill it out, might check some boxes now on my to-do-list. Till next... rant? Hahaha!